You're not Alone

everytime
those beautiful brown eyes fill up
...and overflow..
Sobbing into ur pillow..
feeling like nobody knows..

They see u looking like a model everyday..
but they don't notice th red in ur eyes..
The man dem sae sweet things .but they don't really care about anything except gettin inbetween ur thighs...

Life hasn't been fair to you,every step is a struggle..
Barely managing to keep ur head above water..no break in sight for ur hustle
Men have used u..robbed u of ur innocence..every story ends the same
U gave them ur body hopin to get love in return..but all u got was rejection n shame..

Everynight u feel like ending it all..no family..no friends..Everyday it gets worse..depression..despair..u just want it to end..
Familys gone...friends are fleeting..noone knows noone cares..
U feel like u have no reason to live..ure drowning in ur tears..

U pick up the pill bottle..Tears dripping down ur face..
hands shaking..it ends today..
There's enough in there to stop ur heart..enough to make the pain go away..



He looks down on u ..tear filled eyes filled with love
..My Child..
I formed u with these hands..I breathed my very breath into u..
I watched helplessly as you made one wrong decision after the other..
My love has always been here, but u chose not to see..





As you bring the bottle to ur lips..u wonder if there's a God and if He thinks of u..
You wonder if He made u..if He cares about u...if all the bible stories are true



..My Child...I love u..



U wonder if He loves u..and where He is..Maybe He too doesn't care..
Anyway ure about to find out,u think to urself as the pills tumble into ur mouth




STOP...








U freeze...did u imagine it?..but u heard a voice of that ure sure..
U feel a warmth spreading through your body..emanating from your very core..
U spit the pills out as ur mind works overtime..that sounded like ur dads voice?..but ur dads dead..??

As the warmth embraces u..u close ur eyes n feel a peace..peace flowin like a river..
these words echoing in ur head
......I Love You..

U don't know what just happened..but all of a sudden..u know everythings going to be okay..
Its been ages since u ever did this..u wonder if ull even remember how,but u get on ur knees and start to pray...


U can feel but ur eyes can't see...
ight there in ur little room..
fatherly arms hold u..the warmth that u feel..
Ur heavenly Father stroking ur hair and ministering peace into ur heart...

I love you My Child...and I have a wonderful plan for you

Ur eyes close in sleep..and u smile..u don't know why..but u just know everything will be okay..